I missed out on tickets to veronica mars for this coming friday because i didn’t know they were doing only one fan screening in sydney ugh i’m so mad
on the plus side they are releasing a digital download the same day so perhaps they might have it up somewhere to view, but it was really the only thing i wanted to see in cinemas and I was so excited to see it for months, I’ve loved the show since in aired here late 2005 when I was in Year 6, it’s really something I wanted to support.
@59 minutes ago
“My mother used to say to me, ‘You can’t eat beauty, it doesn’t feed you.’ And these words played and bothered me, I didn’t really understand them until finally I realised that beauty was not a thing that I could acquire or consume. It was something that I just had to be. And what my mother meant by saying that you can’t eat beauty is that you can’t rely on beauty to sustain you.
“What actually sustains us, what is fundamentally beautiful is compassion for yourself and those around you. That kind of beauty enflames the heart and enchants the soul
@21 hours ago with 553 notes
I was supposed to message a friend of mine that I missed him, that I wanted to know if he was okay, like really okay and about his travels over coffee and then kiss him on the nose and give him a big hug but I don’t know if he’ll reply or if I’m even relevant in his life anymore. I thought if he was still on my mind I’d do it, I’ve been thinking about him way too much and I was to do so yesterday. There was a point in the day where I wish we didn’t act on our mutual attraction because I now had no male friend to comfortably talk to anymore (I was having lunch with a male friend from high school and I knew the stuff I needed to get a male perspective on just made him so uncomfortable and I don’t want to burden someone like that). I’d rather have close friends than be physically intimate, I just appreciate it so much when I find people that make me happy and we can just talk about anything and everything forever. I want to say that if I could take back how I was last year (in general) I would, but I can’t and I was speaking to my old tutor yesterday and she’s a no nonsense kinda person and said I was fine. That the people whom disliked me don’t matter anyway. This guy used to say that too. I’m fine. I haven’t spoken to him yet because I’m scared he’s going to reject my attempt at being friends but I guess I can’t knock it til I try, we’re not even in the same spaces anymore so maybe it wouldn’t work just because of that. I’m hoping that because he’s still alive he’s okay, that because I’m getting better he must be too and I should just let us both live out our lives.
Yesterday after lunch I went back to my photo lab at uni and there’s this guy around there and he has the nicest eyes, I can’t look at them for too long because they’re just so pretty and you can get lost into them and apparently you can read me so very easily and I don’t want to seem like I’m thirsty. I haven’t seen him since last semester ended in November. He speaks really soft and doesn’t seem as egotistical and loud as the guys I’ve been around all my life. Not too plain but just right and we both are into photography, especially the darkroom / self processed side. Talking to him about artists and a guy who rode a dick shaped surfboard and hearing him call my mac a derrick because it wasn’t working (he says it’s because it’s a weird sounding name and then me saying that reminded me of teen wolf and he thought it was a kid’s show to which i said it was a playschool show of wolves) makes me wish I had more people in my life, because even though I’ve had lots and lots of negative experiences I’ve also had lots of great ones and just being comfortable with people is something I couldn’t do before, it was so hard, I just like it knowing that it’s easy. I just need to know if I want to be friends of if I want to kiss his face soon.
Oh yes. And I didn’t miss my old friend. My heart didn’t pang at all. I guess I’ll be fine.
@22 hours ago
#ayesha returns to writing long spiels #jaspie style tumbleweeds